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You Work with Computers All Day?! You Must be SO Patient.

And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience –Romans 5:3

When people hear that I have five (going on six) children, I frequently get a comment about patience, usually something like, “Wow, you must be SO patient. I could never have all those kids. I’m going crazy with just my two.” When I get the chance, I try to tell people that I’m really not a naturally patient person, but I’m learning to be patient. And in fact, the Lord has over the years miraculously increased my tolerance for messes, spills, bickering, having my stuff get broken, and multiple little “helpers” always underfoot. How He’s done that has been simple. There’s only one thing that leads to patience. And that is tribulation. The main reason that I’m now able (usually) to spend all day every day with five children is that I spend all day every day with five children.

But I’m not a patient person.

This was driven home to me graphically last month when I scored five photo book vouchers for 75% off. My husband and I were professional photographers for a few years, and my husband has sort of kept up with things as he’s been able. Since we got our first digital camera back when I was pregnant with our firstborn, we have taken roughly 77,000 pictures. (Some of you may be mistaking that for dramatic hyperbole. Au contraire.) And over the same amount of time, we’ve actually printed around 20. The other 76,980 or so pictures lived on an external hard drive handily tucked away in storage, which meant that the children saw fewer actual pictures of themselves as children than I did of myself back when my family was taking grainy pictures on a little point-and-shoot camera with a disposable flash. It was my great dream to make the children photo books of their lives so far, so they could take them out and flip through the way I used to do with those envelopes of prints from the drug store.

Last November, I got my chance. There among the piles special offers and modern-day e-junk mail in my inbox was a deal at Cafe Press, where I could buy up to five image wrap photo book vouchers for the low, low price of $9.99 apiece, for a combined savings of $149.85. The only catch was that once I paid, I had to actually order my books by December 31st. No problem. That was, like, over a month away.

Have I mentioned that I have five going on six children? That I homeschool? That my computer skills are limited to blogging, e-mail, and Facebook, so I needed my husband to actually get the pictures off the hard drive? And have I mentioned that my husband runs his own business? And I’m sure I haven’t mentioned, but the more practical among you may have been able to guess, that it actually takes a very long time to look at 77,000 pictures and decide which ones are your favorites. So it may not be a shock when I tell you that I got nearly to the end of December and I didn’t have my photo books done.

It was crunch time. Every spare moment found me at our little rolltop desk with my husband’s laptop and photo software. One night at around 11:00, I was finally ready to start making the first photo book. I slaved over the layouts, carefully chose backgrounds in my oldest daughter’s favorite colors, picked the perfect cover image and the very best title font. It was beautiful, maybe not up to the level of an experienced album maker, but I was thrilled. I showed my husband each glorious page. It had taken me til 2:00 in the morning, and I was exhausted, but I was done. One down. Four to go. I hit “upload.”

And the whole thing crashed.

My book was gone. My husband tried to find it, but it had completely vanished into cyberspace. I wanted to scream, cry, sit down and DO something, maybe stay up until 5:00 and try to reclaim my lost masterpiece. Panic was rising. This was NOT like having my kids lose the pearls off one of my wedding earrings (which happened last week). This was intolerable. This was a machine just hiccuping when it wasn’t supposed to and RUINING my labor. Machines are supposed to do what you want when you want them to. I knew in my head that computers are lame and always crash, but it hadn’t been in my equation. “I just lost three hours of work,” I said in disbelief.

“Well,” my husband said mildly, “this happens to us all the time at work.”

The next morning, I could hardly remember anything I had done the night before. Right after breakfast I sat down again and remade the entire book. It took another three hours. I hit “upload,” and this time it went through. The glitch was gone, whatever it had been. Now to do the next one.

Once again, I slaved. Layouts, backgrounds, cover image, font. This time for my oldest son. I previewed the photo book. It was great, and I hoped he’d love it. He seemed like maybe he’d be less interested in pictures than his sisters, but then he was a baby lover and these were pictures of him, too. I felt a bit giddy as I dreamed of giving it to him. I hit “upload.”

And the program crashed.

Again.

I lost three hours of work.

Again.

When you don’t pass a test the first time, God often gives you a retry, sometimes the very next day. This was my retry, and somehow it was a little less horrible. Miserable, but not agonizing, like stubbing your toe as opposed to breaking it. I sent my husband a text. I needed the grumpy emoticon, but not the caps lock.

This stuff happens to my husband all the time, so he’s learned to take it in stride. I’m sure he doesn’t like it when programs crash, or the Internet eats his uploads, or he loses hours of work. But it happens often enough that it isn’t unexpected, kind of like I don’t expect to sleep through the night, or have a day without whining, or have my children remember to practice their piano lessons or do their chores without reminders.

If any of you are wondering if you have the patience for a large family, I’d like to encourage you that you probably don’t. But if you’re willing to step out and accept the tribulation, you may very well wind up with exactly the patience you need.

8 comments to You Work with Computers All Day?! You Must be SO Patient.

  • Lauren

    Oh, that is painful. I don’t like doing that much work on the computer even when it doesn’t crash. Thanks for sharing. So true that the Lord uses trials to prove our faith, to develop patience. Thanks for sharing!

  • Ha ha! Love the title and the sentiment. I think that’s the key…you’ll eventually get patience because of having a lot of kids but its not because you already had it.

  • Leonie

    I experienced a photobook-crash with our wedding album. And the pearls I´ve lost on the wedding day itself… You have my full sympathy!

  • I can very readily sympathize; just a few weeks ago, I spent 2 hours on a super important draft in gmail (silly me for not transferring my work to Word) and the thing just ate my draft because of one mis-hit button. I was furious.

    Beside that, I totally get your point. I wasn’t ready for marriage when I got married and I wasn’t ready for motherhood when I had my first baby, but waiting wouldn’t have made me ready – making the plunge did.

  • Oh, Andrea, I am so, so very sorry! I have had similar experiences, but not with the time pressure and fatigue you were facing! My last great loss was looking through Michael’s ?? (I have nearly 100,000 photos in a similar situation to yours, and I’m thinking Michael is probably about where you’re at) pictures. I’d been slowly working through his pictures late at night after the kids went to bed all during the time I was helping out after Judah was born. The last night, I stayed up until 3 am to finish my job…and the whole thing crashed. Michael couldn’t figure out how to retrieve anything in the morning. I was terribly disappointed and had no time to try again. At such times, I just say, “Whatever, Lord! You know what I need better than I do!” But, it still hurts. Your analysis of patience is so “right on.” We become patient by enduring, and we often endure what we’ve chosen by stepping out in faith and believing that “this” is what God wants for us! Glad you’re able to post again. I always love what you have to say!

  • Oooooooooohhhh.. that’s tough. My massage therapist would have some business, if that were me. I tend to tense up so much working on the computer!! I think that scrapbooking is a good activity for women without children at home. ‘just sayin. LOL. And about getting patience from having a lot of kids–it’s true. Except sometimes we can be “too patient” and drown out their nonsense rather than deal with it. When my mother says, “your so patient” she is often referring to something like “And why is it that you let that child do that?” LoL.

  • Christy Thomas

    “This stuff happens to my husband all the time, so he’s learned to take it in stride. I’m sure he doesn’t like it when programs crash, or the Internet eats his uploads, or he loses hours of work. But it happens often enough that it isn’t unexpected, kind of like I don’t expect to sleep through the night, or have a day without whining, or have my children remember to practice their piano lessons or do their chores without reminders.”

    These lines are exactly what I needed to hear on the edge of sanity this morning with a three month old who nurses all night long.

  • This is such a FABULOUS article and such a great way to express the sentiment “whom God calls, He also equips.”

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